Glory

Say Yes. Try it. If the opportunity presents itself, without hesitation, say Yes. Because you know what? You only live once. Even if it’s not something you’d usually do, or it’s not something you think you’d be interested in, give it a try. You’ll never know unless you give it a chance. It might end up being your favourite thing in the world.

Let 2012 be the year of opportunities. Let 2012 be the year that differs from all the previous ones. Even if it means taking small steps. Learn something new. Learn how to bake an excellent cake, learn how to dance, learn how to play volleyball, or just read a book, two, ten. Because all these things, they only make you better.

So, stop being afraid. Stop saying automatically no. Stop walking past things. Take a moment for yourself, and do something you’ve never done before. Even if it means getting a job, learning how to drive, excelling in a foreign language, or something else utterly life-changing.

‘Cause you know what? You can always quit. But what you can’t do, is to pretend that you’ve done it all before.

Give 2012 a chance. Even more, give yourself a chance. You’re better than you think.

One and Only

Another year, another goodbye. These years seem to change faster and faster. So, I guess it’s time to look back on 2011. To be honest, 2011 has been kind to me. I can’t really think of any big minuses. Overall, I believe it was a good year.

2011 was the year I became myself. I became stronger and more independent. I started to think of me, rather than just pleasing others. I realised that it’s okay to be selfish at times. And sometimes, it’s even necessary. I learned to say no, and learned to say yes. I became more open-minded. I did things I’ve never done before. I became comfortable with myself and learned to enjoy my own company. And I realised that only I can make myself truly happy.

2011 was the year I realised who are the most important people in my life. I became even more family-centred. I started valuing every moment spent with my family. I realised what I wanted. I wanted to spend time with family, and almost always chose spending time with family over spending time with friends. I know some people don’t agree with me on this one, but this is what I feel is right for me. This doesn’t mean that I threw away my friends. I do admit that ending 2011, I have less friends than I had a year ago. But it also happened a year ago. And now I’m positive that I’ve surrounded myself with people that truly matter. I’ve found people I can confide in. Funny thing is, they are the same persons I could confide in years ago.

2011 was the year I did great in school. I’m really proud of myself for pulling everything together. I started aiming higher. I set my barriers higher. And I got exactly what I wanted to achieve. Even more important, I started believing in myself. I started believing in succeeding. I started believing in ending up where I want to end up.

2011 was the year I got my driving license. For that, I’m also very proud. Another significant thing was participating in Comenius project. I went to Germany and had foreigners come here in Autumn. It was a fun experience, especially because it brought me closer with other Estonian fellows. I really appreciate the knowledge I got from this. I learned not to fear complete strangers. And I learned to communicate with people that don’t speak the same language, or not even English.

But the memory I hold closest, is my trip to Mallorca with my family in July. It may seem like just a trip, but for me it meant everything. This time I knew to appreciate the family trip, especially because I don’t think there’ll ever be another quite like that.

On a more impersonal level, 2011 was also a year of good music. Especially I loved Beyoncé´s album “4” and Adele’s “21” (“Someone like you” will forever be special to me). There were great tracks, especially party songs to which I could dance to in clubs more than once.

All in all, as I said in the beginning, 2011 has been a good year. Nothing extraordinary, but just simply a good year. I’d like to believe that 2011 was a bridge between my past and future. I believe that 2012 has even more great things in store for me. And I’m really looking forward to it.

2012 will change my life. I’ll make it count.

Pretend

 “For what it's worth: it's never too late or, in my case, too early to be whoever you want to be. There's no time limit, stop whenever you want. You can change or stay the same, there are no rules to this thing. We can make the best or the worst of it. I hope you make the best of it. And I hope you see things that startle you. I hope you feel things you never felt before. I hope  you meet people with a different point of view. I hope you live a life you're proud of. If you find that you're not, I hope you have the strength to start all over again.”

- The Curious Case of Benjamin Button

Now there’s a New Years Resolution for you.

Cosmic Love

It’s a matter of principle, a matter of strength. The ability to say no. No, I won’t be sad. No, I won’t let anybody steal my happiness. I will persevere. I will stand strong.

I will survive.

The amount of negativity won’t outweigh the good. There’s always something positive in our lives. There’s always something to look forward to, or something to set your mind to. I could sit and rethink my life over and over again. Go through all the places I probably went wrong. Concentrate on the ‘what ifs’ and ‘what nots’.

But why should I?

Yes, someone has it better than me. Yes, someone’s enjoying the piece of success that could have easily been mine. But so what? Why would I focus on the negativity and mope around instead of actually doing something to get where I’ve always wanted to get?

I refuse to be taken down. I refuse to surrender. I refuse to break.

So, let them try. Let them put up their best fight. Let them go for it. Because you know what? You’ll stand strong. And you’ll smile, even if every muscle of your body aches. You stand up and you smile.

Because in the end, it’s not the frowns and tears that define us, it’s the actions we took in order to reach our true potential and therefore, happiness.  

Song of the Day

Must love Glee!

Over The Moon

Future. It’s one scary word. Wherever I go, I keep hearing everyone talking about the university they’re going to, about the exams they’ll choose and about getting where they’ve always wanted to get. It’s scary how something you always thought was far-far away is finally here. This is it. Choose. For the rest of your life.

But how do you choose between what’s easy, doable and something that’s so risky that the chance you’ll make it is almost non-existent? Yet you know that the only way you could ever be completely happy is to go down that road. Do you just give everything up and make the biggest jump you’ve ever done? Aren’t you afraid to fall? Aren’t you afraid to fall so hard you’ll never stand back up again?

I know, people say to go for what’s in your heart – follow your dream, do what you’ve always wanted to do. But in reality it isn’t that easy, now is it? There are more factors to consider. I could study at a great university, make great friends, graduate with great results and get a great job. But… is it something I really want? Is it something I want to do for the better part of my life?

Or… I could follow my heart and do something I’m really passionate about. Even if it’s against logic, even if it’s against everything I’ve become to know. What if I lose everything? But then again… What if I win everything? What if 10 years from now I’ll look back and smile, knowing that I did the right choice. What if 10 years from now I’m on top of the world, what if I have my dream job? Could I ever get rid of that ‘what if’?

And yet, what if 10 years from now I look back and wish I had pursued something that I know I could succeed in?

Yes, future. It’s something we’ve always looked forward to, something we’ve always worked hard for. And now it’s here. Take a jump. Leap. And pray to God you won’t fall. Choose.

Apologize

Something for the soul. Something to remind you how quickly time passes by. Something to remind you to live every second of your life to its fullest. So you would never have to be upset over something that’s already absolute, done, forever.

Don’t let life pass you by.