One and Only

Another year, another goodbye. These years seem to change faster and faster. So, I guess it’s time to look back on 2011. To be honest, 2011 has been kind to me. I can’t really think of any big minuses. Overall, I believe it was a good year.

2011 was the year I became myself. I became stronger and more independent. I started to think of me, rather than just pleasing others. I realised that it’s okay to be selfish at times. And sometimes, it’s even necessary. I learned to say no, and learned to say yes. I became more open-minded. I did things I’ve never done before. I became comfortable with myself and learned to enjoy my own company. And I realised that only I can make myself truly happy.

2011 was the year I realised who are the most important people in my life. I became even more family-centred. I started valuing every moment spent with my family. I realised what I wanted. I wanted to spend time with family, and almost always chose spending time with family over spending time with friends. I know some people don’t agree with me on this one, but this is what I feel is right for me. This doesn’t mean that I threw away my friends. I do admit that ending 2011, I have less friends than I had a year ago. But it also happened a year ago. And now I’m positive that I’ve surrounded myself with people that truly matter. I’ve found people I can confide in. Funny thing is, they are the same persons I could confide in years ago.

2011 was the year I did great in school. I’m really proud of myself for pulling everything together. I started aiming higher. I set my barriers higher. And I got exactly what I wanted to achieve. Even more important, I started believing in myself. I started believing in succeeding. I started believing in ending up where I want to end up.

2011 was the year I got my driving license. For that, I’m also very proud. Another significant thing was participating in Comenius project. I went to Germany and had foreigners come here in Autumn. It was a fun experience, especially because it brought me closer with other Estonian fellows. I really appreciate the knowledge I got from this. I learned not to fear complete strangers. And I learned to communicate with people that don’t speak the same language, or not even English.

But the memory I hold closest, is my trip to Mallorca with my family in July. It may seem like just a trip, but for me it meant everything. This time I knew to appreciate the family trip, especially because I don’t think there’ll ever be another quite like that.

On a more impersonal level, 2011 was also a year of good music. Especially I loved Beyoncé´s album “4” and Adele’s “21” (“Someone like you” will forever be special to me). There were great tracks, especially party songs to which I could dance to in clubs more than once.

All in all, as I said in the beginning, 2011 has been a good year. Nothing extraordinary, but just simply a good year. I’d like to believe that 2011 was a bridge between my past and future. I believe that 2012 has even more great things in store for me. And I’m really looking forward to it.

2012 will change my life. I’ll make it count.